Life Changes, Memories Don' t

2010-11-23T17:26:00.000+08:00

theres still feelings for you, d .

2010-11-23T17:25:00.000+08:00

2010-10-11T23:01:00.001+08:00

Maybe when i'm gone then you would realise how much you mean to me .

2010-10-10T01:58:00.000+08:00

SHOULD I JUST GIVE IT UP OR NOT GIVING UP ON LOVE ?

2010-10-06T01:32:00.002+08:00

i wanna let you know how i feel
and its true that i love you
and it's true your the only one and i do,
i adore you and its true

Now your gone i feel so numb

tell me how do we go wrong

first friends then we became best-friend

you used to be my girlfriend

now your just my friend

yeah i gotta do a lil soul searching

without you im a whole different person

i don't even act like i used to

i don't even feel loved like i used to

i guess its your love that i used to

and i feel bad that i lose you

i get so many things that i wanna say

why didn't you believe me

i guess this mean that im missing you

sorry for the things that i did to you

im so lost without you

its true that i love you

and it's true your the only one and i do,

i adore you

and its true girl .

2010-10-05T03:14:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, if they knew how much we sacrifice for them, then they will realise how much we love them .

2010-10-04T03:08:00.001+08:00

2010-10-02T13:35:00.001+08:00

Its hard to wait around for something you know might never happen. But it's even harder to give up when you think it's everything you want.

2010-09-30T03:16:00.004+08:00

As i was walking back home alone at the same route where we used to walk, those memories flashback. Eventhough its been years, yet those memories are still in me.
Its so hard to forget all those beautiful memories that we have gone thru with each other.

2010-09-26T03:34:00.001+08:00

I want to say it to you
but how?

You're always busy..
when i'm not..

When you're not busy,
you do something else..

how?
now i fee like i'm the joke..

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

2010-09-26T03:27:00.000+08:00

If i want to say that i love you..
would you believe me?

If i want to say that i love you..
you think i don't mean it..

If i want to say that i love you..
why must you talk about something else?

If i want to say that i love you..
i just can't stare into your eyes.. i'm so sorry

If i want to say that i love you..
do i need to take you out to somewhere special?

If i want to say that i love you..
i mean it when it's a special day..

If i want to say that i love you..
i would be in my stupidest condition, i can't talk much..

If i want to say that i love you..
i will take the longest time in my life to come up to you..

If i want to say that i love you..
again i assure that you will busy with something else..

If i want to say that i love you..
do you need a contract for that?

If i want to say that i love you..
i'll try my very best..

If i want to say that i love you..
I hope it's a 'i love you too' reply

If i want to say that i love you..
it'd hurt if you say.. "errm, you know?"

If i want to say that i love you..
my life is gonna change in 2 directions..

So if i was to say that i love you..
what do you think?

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2010-09-23T02:37:00.001+08:00

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2010-09-23T02:36:00.000+08:00

IF ONLY YOU KNEW .

2010-09-21T13:02:00.001+08:00

MACAM BEST GYTU KENE GYNI !!!

2010-09-19T19:28:00.001+08:00

i got so much love
for you darlin' and i,
i wanna let you know how i feel

and its true that i love you
and it's true your the only one and i do,
i adore you
and its true girl

you make me feel alive ive ive ive 4x

you said - you said - you said
that im the only one
you said that im your number 1
now your gone and i feel numb
tell me where do we go wrong
you are my best friend and boyfriend
now its seems like you're my worst friend
i gotta do soul searching
without you im a whole different person
i aint acting like i used to
i don't feel loved like i used to
it was your love i was used to
why do i had to lo-lo-lo-lose
your love your love your love
your love is what it was
that have me feeling **bust**
***you are my true love***

and its true that i love you
and it's true your the only one and i do
i adore you
and its true girl

you make me feel alive ive ive ive 4x
[apl.de.ap]
hey girl ur the only one
**must** be my number one
now your gone i feel so numb
tell me how do we go wrong
first friends then we became best-friend
you used to be my girlfriend
now your my worst friend
yeah i gotta do a lil soul searching
without you im a whole different person
i don't even act like i used to
i don't even feel loved like i used to
i guess its your love that i used to
and i feel bad that i lose you
i get so many things that i wanna sa-sa-sa-sa...
i guess this mean that im missing you
sorry for the things that i did to you
im so lost without you

and its true that i love you
and it's true your the only one and i do,
i adore you
and its true girl

u make me feel alive ive ive ive 4x

la di di da la di da la da
la di da la di da
la di di da la di da la da
la di da la di da

i got so much love

la di di da la di da la da
la di da la di da

i got so much love

la di di di di di di di da la la la la

...i adore u and its true girl

you make me feel alive ive ive ive 4x

so easy to fall in love with u
and all the things that u do
baby girl ur so remarkable
so special, so wonderful
so special, so wonderful
so special, so wonderful

baby girl ur so remarkable
so spesh-al-al-al-al-al-al

2010-09-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

I MISS YOU, BUT DO YOU ?

2010-09-16T03:16:00.000+08:00

Nothing left for me to say
There's no more wicked games to play
It's time for me to walk away
I am allright

I feel like I'm on a high
A new beginning that is my life
I'm turning to the rythm of the night
I am allright

The music is making me growing
The only thing that keeps me awake is me knowing
There's noone here to break me or bring me down
And noone here to hurt me or fool around

I have no more time for you to hurt my feelings
Done enough to prove I'm all that I believe in
We are at the end no more stupid lies
I'm better off without you here by my side

So no there is no longer you and I - you and I
You and I - you and I
You and I - you and I
You and I
There is no longer you and I - you and I
You and I - you and I
You and I - you and I
You and I

Don't care what other people say
I know you fool around all day
Now it doesn't hurt me anyway
I am allright

And when the day turns into night
I'm in a club forgetting you and I
And when I'm think of how you treated me
You proved me right

The music is making me growing
The only thing that keeps me awake is me knowing
There's noone here to break me or bring me down
And noone here to hurt me or fool around.

I have no more time for you to hurt my feelings
Done enough to prove I'm all that I believe in
We are at the end no more stupid lies
I'm better off without you here by my side

So no there is no longer you and I - you and I
You and I - you and I
You and I - you and I
You and I
There is no longer you and I - you and I
You and I - you and I
You and I - you and I
You and I

2010-09-06T01:07:00.002+08:00

Well, attchment has ended. No more Mr hamdi, Teacher, Cherrr !! Its gonna be akward cus im like getting used to it already.
Im sure gonna miss the students, thanks for making my attchment such an awesome one. i appreciate it alot guys! :D
what can we do, everything has an end, so here im ending my attchment.
For now, i dont know what to do, return to ITE for gym or just stay hm and slack like shiat.. hmm gonna think bout that as soon after raya..

Life been great all this while as im a teacher but as i was to said goodbye to my other teachers, my heart began to become soft like spondge as it wants to stay there,but still we need to go.
Ive been missing someone these day. and hoping that those time was replyed.
watching other couples cuddling, i got jealous but yeaa i know im just not to good to be like those guy. i still need to learn, thers alot more to come.
i really do missed being in relationships. But for now only crushes will do.
im scared i might hurt the other party.

Hari raya is just around the corner, yess ! this yr gonna be a special yr for me cus im gonna drive for the first time. Finnaly my wishes has come true. its been long i wanted this wish to be granted.
Driving with friends behinds. listening to songs we love.. Blasting the music as if we are in d club.
Well, when Hari Raye comes, it times for spring cleaning. and im so so so lazy for it. but this yr. im gonna help my parents with it. for sure.. :D

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when we havent meet, you often called me, text me randomly..
But after we met, you changed. why ?
i understand if im lack of something, we aint perfect.

2010-08-23T21:43:00.002+08:00

Firstly, this song means something to me which i dont even know what it is,
maybe its just the lyrics that made me got hooked up by the song.

Went to watch late midnight movie with friends, since its been long we've been going out together since we enter ITE, so its hard for us to meet up and thats where we gonna catch up on things.
So, i picked them up and drove to Cathey to catch up the movie Step Up 3D.
After movies went to Bukit timah to had our sahur and send them back, overall its a fun short outing.

My attchment is ending and im sure gonna miss my students.
its fun being a teacher as its not easy to be a teacher when you are in a NT stream..
I do miss being a student too, the time where we are slightly naughty and didnt listen to what the teacher talks. haha
But didnt i forget ITE life too, im really grateful to be having Understanding friends around me whom help me when ive got problems.

As for life, its been normaly lately. nothing intresting just that ive start driving on myself. i just got this feelings that i miss someone but i dont even know who, or am i just missing being in love again? im not sure either.
being single is great too. yet jealousy comes whenever i saw couples outside.
but what can be done, its just not the right time yet for me.

2010-08-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

Its been 3 weeks since ive got my driving lisences, yet im still right here.
What i mean was, althought ive got the lisence, im just like not making used of it.
yes, i can rent a car but im too shy to ask. maybe thats the reason.
my wishes has yet not been granted.
Maybe im just too stupid for not asking.

Life has been suck these days, im such a bad ass friend. Ive been hurting you non stop, i dunno why it must be you. I just hope that you could forgive me for the wrong ive done but i cant promise you. Everybody do repeat their mistakes repeatedly.

And, i felt that i need someone in my life.. someone that i could talk to when im down to cheer me up, someone to WAKE me up for the wrong doing that i might do, someone that i can rely too, someone that can feel me..
BUT i know, im not a good guy afterall.
i need you, but i dont know who will it be.
im waiting for you to come.
i hate this feeling where, we have been contacting for months and suddenly you ecsape.
MAYBe im just not a good guy afterall.

2010-07-07T11:46:00.002+08:00

Lets starts with attchment, well being a Pe teacher was fun yet BORING. I really felt like a student again as every morning i need to sing the national anthem and take the pledge. Im gonna admit that being a teacher is though. My first time conducting a class was kinda cocky as its my first time and i hope to do it better as days goes by.

i hope to be driving soon, not with an instructor but alone or with my frens,
im hoping for that to come true this 26 july. IM suck at checking my blindsspots.
so 26 juky is my very very very BIG day !

Life sucks these days, its been exciting yet so boring. maybe its exciting bcos im doing my attchment and the boring part is the work is such a slack.
i kept having these negative thoughts of you, i didnt miss seeing you everyday but that doesnt mean imma stalker aits..
i wish you'd talk and be like the way you're the starting we knew each other.
i miss those momments so much :D

2010-06-19T02:06:00.002+08:00

i wish you know the feeling that was kept in my heart
im too scared to say
i dont have the guts
But i miss you
im just gonna hurt myself if this goes on
ive lost all confidents
im taking it tooooo slow..
i just got this feelings thats its you
if im wrong though,i noe its you
i may get a lil bit emo today.
this is what i felt.

2010-06-17T04:01:00.002+08:00

Kasyah (Farid Kamil) is a troublemaker in high school but things change when he meets Ayu (Lisa Surihani) and she accepts him. However, Kasyah has to go to a village to complete his thesis which forces him to part with Ayu. She then meets her ex-lover Azmi (Que Haidar) who pursues her.,
(no spoilers just in case there are others out there that don’t know the story)

Kasyah (Farid Kamil) is a notorious badboy and prankster on campus who falls for the beautiful Ayu (Lisa Surihani). Love soon blossoms between them. Their love is tested when Kasyah has to complete his research in a place cut off from outside civilisation. Their lives change forever when Azmi (Que Haidar), Ayu’s abusive boyfriend reappears in her life.

2010-06-09T03:01:00.002+08:00

Am gonna change for the better
hope its not just a minute thing
as a humans, we tend to make mistakes without we knowing
i admit it im a bad friend
but i appreciate it so much for being patience
im trying to change for the better, trying very hard
until i cant control myself, i got confused
somebody please help me
i dont know where to start
ive hurt you all enough, this should be an end
i should learn to appreciate things before they are gone.

2010-06-09T00:33:00.001+08:00

TONIGHT

Push my back so i make sure
you're right behind me as before
yesterday the night before tomorrow

dry my eyes so you won't know
dry my eyes so i won't show
i know you're right behind me

and don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight

you walk the surface of this town
the high heels above the ground
and high horses that we know
keep us safe until the night

you know them all, i know it all
stay put and play along
'cause i'm looking for my friend
now i got you, got you

don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight

i dry my eye, dry my eye
dry my eye, dry my eye
dry my eye . . .
dry my eye, dry my eye
dry my eye, dry my eye
dry my eye . . .

yeah,
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight
don't you let me go, let me go tonight

let me go, let me go
let me go, let me go
let me go, let me go
let me go, let me go
let me go, let me go

2010-06-07T01:13:00.003+08:00

2010-06-05T19:04:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, we had lunch at Seoul Garden marina with classmates.
as its our last day as a class together, my advisor has decided that we had lunch together.
after the lunch, we went shisha at Haji Lane.
and something happen there...

i guess im too late. but i hope theres still chance for me.

2010-06-02T21:25:00.000+08:00

Exam is over, soon im goona be PE teacher
everything happened so fast
i didnt even realise im starting my attchment soon
frankly, im not ready for it
but this is life, we still have to move on
i hope i could do well for my attchment

Life, as the day goes by
there are alot of challenges coming on my way
sometimes i myself dont know what to do
giving up is on my mind all the time
But thanks to my friends, for motivating me to go on

im scared, scared of the past
i didnt want it to happen again
it made me lose my confident in having relationships
i had enough of people calling me names
but am trying to change slowly
i think ive found one, i hope this is the one.

2010-05-25T00:11:00.001+08:00

I don't know but I think I may be fallin' for you
Droppin' so quickly maybe I should keep this to myself
Wait until I know you better

I am tryin' not to tell you but I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hidin' what I'm feelin'
But I'm tired of holdin' this inside my head

I've been spendin' all my time just thinkin' 'bout you
I don't know what to do I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waitin' all my life and now I found you
I don't know what to do I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standin' here and you hold my hand
Pull me towards you and we start to dance
All around us I see nobody
Here in silence it's just you and me

I can't stop thinkin' 'bout it I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it I think I'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinkin' 'bout it I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you oh oh oh no no oh oh oh oh
Oh I'm fallin' for you

2010-05-23T15:03:00.002+08:00

A friend of mine once said to me..
" You should learn your mistakes, stop wasting you opportunities in life "
thinking bout it, i think he's right
ive been wasting it all this while
i easily give up on things

As for school, Attachment is starting soon and i dont even consider where im gonna be attch too..
either pirmary or secondary school.. i dont seem to have the confidents
or maybe i just lazy

Maybe we can take it slow
i can show you what you've been waiting for
Just let me show you what you've have been waiting
Sinking in each other, we will be together
lacing up my finger, saving all my kisses for you
you're all that i need you get me thinking .

2010-05-20T22:01:00.003+08:00

Went ECP last Friday for Fiza's 9-teen bdae chalet, and the same time reunion for Primary schoomates. Reached around 6 and had fun.

Kinda miss the oldtimes when we were young. haha !

" Girl, take me to a deeper conversation. "

2010-05-15T14:06:00.002+08:00

" And i know i never tell you
that i love you
maybe its not too late

And i dont know how to tell you
but i want too
i dont want to leave this way "

2010-05-09T03:35:00.001+08:00

A friend of mind told me that i should learn a lesson of not wasting any opportunity, just go for it and give it a try. :)

Adey .

2010-05-06T23:02:00.002+08:00

There's this somebody in mind
but aint sure if it right
had enough of the past

You might think I don't look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
It's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
I'm just scared to know the ending

maybe we can take it slow
i could show you what you’ve been waiting for

Sinking in each other
we will be together
lacing up my fingers
saving all my kisses for you, baby
you’re all that i need and
it’s got me thinking..

If you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
And Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

2010-05-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

I think about you day after day,
sometimes, I even plan out what I will say.
You have no idea; you have no clue,
just how much I think of you.
I remember the time, I remember the day,
I had no idea what I was going to say.
I remember getting lost while staring into your eyes;
I must have made about a million of sighs.

I cant make up my mind

Am i ready to start anew.

I dont know

2010-05-03T17:41:00.001+08:00

Looking around you
Seeing all those happy couples
Jealousy felt,and happiness too
Thinking about all the joy and troubles

Holding hands with a smile on their faces
Enjoying each other's company
Having someone to lean on when you're down
Someone to live those happy moments with

Maybe now is not the right time
Maybe im too young
Seeing them happily together
Making my heart sink

Whens the right time
Who is the right one
What will she look like
From where will she come

2010-05-01T11:37:00.001+08:00

Nothing left for me to say
There's no more wicked games to play
It's time for me to walk away
I am allright

I feel like I'm on a high
A new beginning that is my life
I'm turning to the rythm of the night
I am allright

The music is making me growing
The only thing that keeps me awake is me knowing
There's noone here to break me or bring me down
And noone here to hurt me or fool around

I have no more time for you to hurt my feelings
Done enough to prove I'm all that I believe in
We are at the end no more stupid lies
I'm better off without you here by my side

So no there is no longer you and I - you and I
You and I

There is no longer you and I - you and I
You and I

Don't care what other people say
I know you fool around all day
Now it doesn't hurt me anyway
I am allright

And when the day turns into night
I'm in a club forgetting you and I
And when I'm think of how you treated me
You proved me right

The music is making me growing
The only thing that keeps me awake is me knowing
There's noone here to break me or bring me down
And noone here to hurt me or fool around.

I have no more time for you to hurt my feelings
Done enough to prove I'm all that I believe in
We are at the end no more stupid lies
I'm better off without you here by my side

So no there is no longer you and I - you and I
You and I - you and I

2010-04-29T17:15:00.005+08:00

Just got home from practical driving, had lesson 2.2 and 2.3, next will be 2.4, 2.5 and i cant wait for it. Its raining jusnow and thats the first time im driving in the rain, it was a bit scared at first.. but then, everything goes fine..
ive been having mood wings lately. dont have the mood of making jokes, laugh around like a clown like im used too everyday.. i wonder why..
my mind cant stop thinking bout something yet idk what im thinkijng about.
i miss someone.. but idk who im missing..
issit depression?? haha !!

2010-04-26T22:57:00.001+08:00

Take it slow .

2010-04-26T22:34:00.002+08:00

I will keep you waiting, until you say something
Baby dont be hating, Im just doing my thing
No no no no, can you fill me in

Can I get your number; I will be your shelter
Through the rain and thunder, break your heart I never
Love, I promise you forever

Maybe we can take it slow
I could show you what youve been waiting for
Maybe we can take it slow
Just let me show you what youve been waiting for

Sinking in each other, we will be together
Lacing up my fingers, saving all my kisses for you, baby
Youre all that I need and youve got me thinking..

Maybe we can take it slow
I could show you what youve been waiting for
Maybe we can take it slow
Just let me show you what youve been waiting for

2010-03-29T20:09:00.000+08:00

Mata Ke Mata...
Ke Hati...
Hati ke Hati...
Hati Hati...
Bibir Ke Bibir...
Bicara Janji...
Janji Janji...
Jadi Luka Hati...
Rindu ke Rindu...
Termimpi mimpi...
Hari Ke Hari...
Nanti di nanti...
Menanti Pasti...
Pasti Disisi...
Sisiku Kini...
Ternanti nanti...

Bila diceritakan tentang cinta
Segalanya muncul sekelip mata
Semuanya di depan mata ada dia
Makan tidur pun tak lena

Dia... cinta...
Dia... sayang...
Aku... dicinta...
Aku... disayang...

Kamu yang bawa ku terbang
Kamulah jua yang membawa cinta
Ke jalannya...
Kamu yang bawa ku terbang
Ke bintang kejora cinta kita
Kekal untuk selamanya

Kita berdua kian bermesra
Rindu makin membara
Kita berdua bermain kata
Pasang surut tak endah

Mata hati jiwaku...
Seluas artatika
Sebesar jupiter
Namun segitiga bermuda
Ku ganti sungai merah
Dengan darahku
Rinduku meragutkan
Kehangatan cinta kita

Mungkin tidak Sehebat mana
Ku di pertikaikan kasih
Ku bukan tempat dua ketiga
Di hati ku cuma kau yang satu
Seterusnya nyatanya hanya
Dirinya jiwanya
Jiwa ku rentas benua
Warna angkasa cinta
Cintalah kamu...

2010-03-24T16:18:00.002+08:00

2010-03-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

Its has been sometime i didnt update my blog, its dusty now aye..
School is stressing me.. theres tons of assigments that i gotta do..
and halfway JUne, gonna start on my attchment.
and i have not yet think of where im goin for attchment.
Secondary school or Primary school ?
hmmm....

2010-02-21T01:23:00.001+08:00

A song that makes me think of that someone .

Vierra- Rasa ini

ku tak percaya
kau ada di sini
menemaniku di saat dia pergi
sungguh bahagia
kau ada di sini
menghapus semua
sakit yang ku rasa

mungkinkah kau merasakan
semua yang ku pasrahkan
kenanglah kasih

ku suka dirinya
mungkin aku sayang
namun apakah mungkin
kau menjadi milikku

kau pernah menjadi
menjadi miliknya
namun salahkah aku
bila ku pendam rasa ini

2010-02-21T01:10:00.003+08:00

Just got back frm indonesia, Jogjakarta last 2 days
1 week of non stop hits. haha !
been riding motorbike all the time
hope to go back there again
even right now, ive already ive miss the places, people, the motorides there. :D
.

If a guy gave a bangle to the girl, and she accept it.
then on the night before the guy need to return back to his country,
the bangle was snaped and the bids falls apart.
and she is extremely sad and down.
and she even collected it all at once and put it back together to fixed the bangle.
maybe to her, the bangle may not be expensive, but she really appreciate it so much.
why ehhhhhh ????

my cousin had a crush on me.
she would look at me when thers a chance.
hahaha..

2010-02-04T01:19:00.003+08:00

Ku lihat dia
Pandangan pertama
Ternyata indah
Senyuman liriknya

Ku ingin dia
Saat pertama
Berjumpa dengannya
Membuat ku gelisah

Waktu berlalu
Hari demi hari
Hatiku dambakannya
Untuk bercinta lagi

Ku ingin dia
saat pertama
Berjumpa dengannya
Membuat ku gelisah

Waktu berlalu
Hari demi hari
Hatiku dambakannya
Untuk bercinta lagi
Hatiku dambakannya
Untuk bercinta lagi

2010-02-04T01:19:00.002+08:00

its Wedneday night
and its so shocking
after what i saw on the conversation
im like " hamdi are you down down down down down..." hahhaha !
i hope you're happy with your life now
you deservesomeone way better .
im happy seeing you happy

2010-02-04T00:04:00.002+08:00

Imagine aku TVmu

Transmisionku terbit untukmu

Dramaku produk khas siaranmu

Trans-sonet gelora Satelit Chinta

Imagine aku radiomu

Intermisionku orbit untukmu

E-ramaku rekord khas hiburanmu

inter-planet kejora Ke marikh asth-mara WO'o'oo

per-MY-suri rumahku

per-My-suri radarku

per-MY-suri syurgaku..

wO'o'oo Yang teristimewa

Imagine aku Vjmu

Transvisiku terbitan untukmu

Karektorku ilham khas pedomanmu

Trans-fonik gelora satelit chinta

Imagine aku DJmu

Intervisionku orbit untukmu

Metaforku iltizam khas buatmu

Inter-sonik kejora Ke-marikh asth-mara Wo'o'oo

2010-02-02T18:15:00.001+08:00

when i'm crying, u laughing
u think that it has all been decided
but its all coming back to u..
u never realise
u think its alright
u say i can't swim
but u'r drowning
u think that its all is been decided
but u still hiding in ur shoes
u never try to walku think its alright
cause the days are coming earlythe sun is shining clearly
we need a rideto travel fast
just don't deny
break the ice
and the worlds's becoming lonely
when pride just can't be a print
i can't decide

2010-01-26T02:04:00.001+08:00

I miss D .

2010-01-15T16:21:00.003+08:00

So this is life
since you left
everything seems to change
but im always missing you
and regreted it alot, D .

why do people give hopes and change thier minds
and leave them all alone after that
dissapointed, but why should i
i should think the positive way

2010-01-11T18:46:00.000+08:00

'' COLDEST STORY EVER TOLD ''

what's happening.

2010-01-10T13:00:00.002+08:00

what a yesterday,
looks like you
your smile
the way you laugh
the cuteness of you
the curly hair, the way you dress
the colour of your skin
the way you behave
it made me think of you
made me miss you
the way you stared at me
while posing for pictures
i thought it was you
i hope it was you
well, what a yesterday .

2010-01-10T12:16:00.001+08:00

2010-01-09T00:46:00.003+08:00

school was fun
things seems to change alot
i think its better this way
and yea
yesterwas was ILHAM birthday!
HAPPY BDAE FREN !
da legal broo !
PAP PAP PAP KASI KOYAK !
hahahahah !
celebrate his bdae at BB mac and off home..
and yea thnaks for the earpiece.

life change alot
we wont know who had crushes on us till we ask them personally
and when we knew... we'll be shock.. theres alot.. hahaha !

2010-01-07T00:41:00.001+08:00

i dont know if im right to say this
I MISS YOU DINIY !

its all my fault
i didnt cherish love .
im a bad boyfirend.

2010-01-05T14:53:00.002+08:00

Is your favourite colour blue ?
Do you always tell the truth ?
Do you believe in outer space ?
Now im learning you ..

Is your skin is tan as mine ?
Does your hair flow sideways ?
Did someone take a portion of your heart ?
Now im learning you...

And if you dont mind can you tell me all your hopes and fears
And everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
Id love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me.

Ive let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

2010-01-01T16:13:00.002+08:00

Its new year and you're not here
once its 12.00am, people are shouting happyly during the fireworks
but instead im at tere shouting inside my heart while staring to the beautiful fireworks..
where are you???
thanks to my frens for making my day and for being tere for me when i was down.
2009 is over and 2010 has come
but the first minutes of 2010 seems so sour for me .
not even a NEW year message from you..
what did i do wrong, why were you so mean?
the feeling just died, i dont feel
wish it was easy to say i love you
cus there's still, many things for us to do
whatever it is, im always here for you and i trust you.

2009-12-29T03:24:00.004+08:00

Dior, where are you ?
do you know ive been waiting for you ?
do you know that i miss you so much ?
do you still want us ?

atleast tell me where you are
not once, but more den a week
call me, text me
a message from you is enough to make me happy
a call would made me even happier
you've been silent
please stop this

i miss you dior :(
indeed i really misssssssss youuuuuuuu babyyy..

2009-12-29T01:34:00.000+08:00

There's some things, we don't talk about
rather do without
and just hold the smile
falling in and out of love
ashamed and proud of
together all the while

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time and time again
younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Picture, you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
I will be your guardian
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time, time and time again
younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

2009-12-25T18:12:00.003+08:00

2009-12-25T01:18:00.002+08:00

Went fishing at Changi beach with senja mates
reach there around 7pm and we start fishing around 9pm
it was damn freezing cold as it was raining till the next afternoon.
once rain stop, packed up, clean up and stuff den bussed home.

too lazy to update.

Im right here wondering what im wondering what i wonder .

I miss you diniy :(

2009-12-21T17:38:00.001+08:00

to dior .

2009-12-21T03:32:00.002+08:00

Its 4am in the morning and im still awake
just finished watching this Malay movie

" Cinta Luar Biasa "
its a nice movie to watch
Love,jelousy,trust and many more
but mostly its bout Friendship.

The part which i like most was when they said,
" Kalau dah suke, bilang... nanti terlambat "
translate
if you like that person.. do tell before its too late..
Its quite true, cus ive experience it bfroe.

but now, ive already have one
and i will love her
i hope the conflicts between u and them will stop asap
and dont think to much aits bby
the querrel will no be long, trust me
they r just disappointed, after awhile.. they will buat bodoh.
u may not even be reading this
as ur too busy with work,but i understand
its for ur own good too

If u really need space, i can be ur space..
i may not be a good bf, but im always thinking of you
whatever i do, my mind is always with you
am always waiting for your msges, ur calls
everytime i call u, u didnt answer
yes, i felt sad.. and pissed off at times
and i noe u want space, but remember u got someone .

2009-12-16T02:04:00.002+08:00

Where have you been, you may be busy
and i understand
but for sure you had a free time too
cant you use that time to like atleast text me ?

2009-12-13T14:48:00.002+08:00

2009-12-12T18:28:00.011+08:00

1 Week to Indonesia Jogjakarta.

really had fun there
the last day is the worst.
pictures says it all.

2009-12-02T14:52:00.003+08:00

Holidayyyy !!
exams are over and im stress
stressing on the planning during the holidayy. hahah !
well.. cant wait to go Jakarta this sunday.
and for sure im gonna miss my dearest :[

2009-12-02T00:42:00.001+08:00

Future instruments
it can play all kind of music in one Instrument ,
kindda cool shiat!

2009-12-02T00:32:00.002+08:00

diordiordior
im glad that you realise your mistakes
its nothing really, just that tell me where you are atleast..
though ur busy with work and stuff.
ok nevermind, its over anyway, and ur forgiven too
Remeber eh, u have promised me that you wont do it again..
if u repeat it again.. TGK lah nasib youu ! hahaha !
im goin jakarta for 1 week this sunday.
damm ! i dunwanna go, but what to do.. air tickets booked .
im sure gonna miss you like hell
meet ya soon bby!

I felt sad for my second sister
she's having this illness since she's young.
i really pity her, its like she has no freedom and see the outside world
its not dat we dun let her go out for a walk or sumthing.
but when she fell, thats gonna be a major problems..
her mouth was bleeding recently, and i really pity her
i felt like crying after seeing my sister dat way..
allah, please forgive her mistkes that she has made, let her free from any illness, guve her some freedom in life.. aminnn..

2009-11-29T14:30:00.002+08:00

The only music that my ears wanna listens to is your voice .

i miss you dior .

2009-11-23T13:47:00.003+08:00

Love, its me and you
the feelings of yours is just a negative thoughts
its just for a momment, trust me
however, im sure of my decision
althought i seems not to show it, but i really do love you baby.
i repeat, i love you Dior !
like what you have said

" You opened my heart in ways it had never been opened before. You awakened a part of me that had lay dormant all of life. Although I had loved and been loved before, never had it been so intense and so deep as what we feel for each other. "

As i was starring by the window and thinking bout us last night, i had this in mind,
for sure i will not waste it, i'll love you the same way you love me
its true we been through with alot of complicated satus and im hoping for us to last too.
i Love you Diniy ! <3

2009-11-21T20:02:00.003+08:00

Currently at Marina's Starbucks now doing some revisions for my comings exams.
as i was bored, decided to take some pictures with them. the pictures are above.

2009-11-16T16:21:00.000+08:00

" If only i had the Words to tell you, if only you had the time to Understand "

-Billy Joel

2009-11-13T04:07:00.001+08:00

I Love You Dior
Please dont go .

2009-11-09T23:55:00.003+08:00

Memang benar ku salah
Tak menghargai perasaanmu
Dan menghancurkan rasa cintamu

Saat kuingat dirimu
Harummu yang memeluk nafasku
Yang memberikanku kehangatan

Terangnya seribu bintang
Tak dapat menyamai cahaya
Keindahanmu dari wujudmu

Dan aku tak mengijinkan
Cahayamu redup karenaku
Dan atas kesombonganku

Andai...
Ku tak membuang dirimu
Menjadikan yang kedua
Atas cintaku

Janganlah
Keterpurukanku ini
Membuat kau membenciku
Selamanya... dan membunuhku

2009-11-09T23:35:00.003+08:00

Amazing Vocal Sound Effects

Haloooo, Lets talk bout Sunday
Nothing much, just had soccer training, and had a match againts a regular team which came down to the place we had our training every sunday
it was a good game though
we drew 0-0
Our team still have the stamina after 2 months of break.
ended around 7 plus den headed home

Was late for school today
bussed to sch, alight at my busstop, saw my classmates walking to sch too.. fuhh !
tot i was The only late comer, hahaha !
reached school, copy some notes,went to eat and stuff
den class ended

After that, went BBDC for my BTT test.
what a relieve, i PASS !! hahaha !
that means i can continue for my FTL already
cant wait for the practical manx !
after the test went home .

Thats all peeps .

2009-11-08T13:39:00.002+08:00

Decisions, its not that i didnt know how to make my own
how to, when you're at a lost state
everything u do seems to be in doubt
Options, i do not have any other option and my only option for now is you .

Last saturday seems to be hell for you
im sorry, thats where your trust towards me were broken
i will stop lying to you
TRUST is the most important thing in everything
without them, all will be broken
thanks for giving me a chance
im sure not gonna waste it
hoping that everything would comeback like normal

dior,

i love you .

BTT is tommorow and im nervous. lol !
hope i'll pass the test and go on with FTT
cant wait to get my lisence and drive around..
WEEEEEE!!! hahahahha !

as for school, im sure gonna prove HIM wrong.
He thinks that ive got no hope.
BESAR TK BESAR LA BROTHER ! hahah !

soccer training later on at 4,
my leg GATAL alr wanna go soccer.
dribbling is my favourite. lol !

maybe thats all for now .
calo peeps !

2009-11-05T16:40:00.007+08:00

He's making the Sound of the guitar using his mouth. COOL !!

FUCK OFF with you .
Who you think you are ?
just because i didnt wear appropriate attire to school den you need to talk to me till dat way.
If ur're not sincere on helping me from the start, why HELP me. FUCK OFF.
the way u said just made my fist wanna go to your face.
its not sarcastic its CCB! nabeh !
Fuck with school .
" hope u'll do well in the next 2 years after you graduated " and walk away..
WTF !!! so ur saying ive no hope la. nabehh !

After school went bbdc for my practise for my oncoming BTT this coming Monday,
and hell NO, i did badly.. maybe thanks to what happen in school yea..
what the hell...

Setiap nafasku, hanyalah untukmu .

2009-11-04T00:46:00.004+08:00

Setiap Nafasku, hanyalah untukmu .

Where have you been ?
you seems to be avoiding me
im sorry if ive hurt you .

Kasihmu
Di luar jangkaanku
Sulit rasanya hidupku tanpamu
Usah kau pergi jauh

Aku berjanji
Cintamu ku bawa mati
Tak inginku mula cerita baru
Diriku teruntuk kamu

Setiap nafasku
Berpesan padamu
Jangan pernah
Tinggalkan diriku

Sentiasa hadir
Di jalan hidupku
Yakini cintaku
Untuk kamu

Aku menanti
Ketibaan hari itu
Saatnya kau mengucap cinta sejati
Dua menjadi satu

Aku mengerti
Kata-kataku percuma
Hingga tiba suatu masa
Semuakan menjadi nyata

Sentiasa hadir
Di jalan hidupku
Yakini cintaku
Hanya untukmu

2009-11-02T23:58:00.006+08:00

" Kau datang tanpaku sedar
Didalam kegelapan
Beserta keyakinan
Dan ku hanya bisa menyanyi
Tentang kehidupan ini
Tanpaku mengerti...
Dan... langit menjadi biru
Dengan kehadiranmu, oh sayang
Adakah ini satu cabaran
Ataupun satu pertemuan
Kau puteriku
Kau menghias ruang istanaku
Beri keyakinan di dalam jiwaku
Sebagai petanda kau puteriku... "

Its not that i wanna lied
i know ive broken my promise to you
i thought that its best if i kept it from you cus if i told you im going, for sure you'll get angry or upset towards me
and futhermore, i dont want us to get into a fight
its my fault, i knew you're disapponted with me over that. atleast i should tell you the truth. i really didnt meant it. lets take this as a lesson for me to learn and to realise my mistakes. Im a bad guy . i didnt meant to hurt ur feelings. forgive me please...

the truth hurts sometimes, and it hurts more when i lied.
im sorry.

2009-10-30T00:59:00.001+08:00

And if you dont mind can you tell me all your hopes & fears
And everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
Id love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me.

2009-10-29T23:48:00.004+08:00

ON and OFF
what is happening ?
most of the time i will be thinking about it
and lots of questions will be popping out in my head
i might not be serious
but actually im the other way round on the inside

i understand your situation now

maybe its just not the right time.

you shared all your stories with me

im ready to listen attentively

and share mine with you

theres alot more that you dont know bout me

im just keeping quiet.

you have open my heart

and so do i did to you

but something is holding us back

maybe im not as sweet as u expected. haha !

im different

if im wrong do tell me

please dont say goodbye

when u have already said hi !

ily D .

2009-10-29T00:50:00.001+08:00

Adey song .

Snake game on building. COOL SHIT !
and theres some video below..

2009-10-27T23:01:00.003+08:00

Today was FUN fun FUN !! hhaha..
Went to school as normal
bussed to school and reached around 9am where my class started at 9.
so i was late. LIKE normal. lol !
reach school, went to buy my drinks and off to class
class was kindda Fun today, had alot to laugh about
then after school, class A had thier TPC(coaching test)going on.
so me and some of my classmates went to watch
so we went to the field and there are doing coaching on soccer
as we are bored, we borrowed one ball and play some juggling
i owed 100 push up !! loL !!
and harris owed 200++ push uP !
hahhahha !
then bussed home with ilham,harris and ahmad syahir.
was laughing all the in the bus as if its our fathe bus. ahahah !
we were doing funny faces to people outside.
ILHAM saw this motorcyclist and he tot its was a women riding it and he say
" kacau pompuan tu naik motor, eh?!! ALAMAK PAK HAJI !! " HAHAHAH !!
He thought that the rider was a women but was actually a MAN ! HAHAHA !!
he's wearing jubah dats why he tot it was a skirt. lol !!!
was laughing on that all the way back to bukit panjang ..
stomach muscles can grow mann!!
reach home, slept till 7 and off to takraw with senja frens
and home and now im blogging.

im happy to know you .

2009-10-27T01:12:00.000+08:00

lets talk about Sunday,
Woke up late and was late for my soccer training again. haah!
was suppose to be there by 3.30 and i came around 4.15
so get changed and off to the field for training till 7
after the training ends, all of us went home and get ready for the Big soccer match
MANCHESTER UNITED VS LIVERPOOL FC
but i didnt catch up with them as im watching at home.
the macth drives me crazy as Manchester lose 2-0 to their rivals. WTH !!
im sure they gonna buck up and pull thier socks up high in their upcoming matches
Man UTD all the way !

Today, went to sch as per normal
we just had revision the whole day and class ended around 1 plus.
so accompany AHmad and Atikah to the coffeeshop opposite our sch to eat then went to the void deck nearby to TUNE her guitar as its out of tune
its been long we didnt slack togther as we've been busy with school and frens.
so we talk alot jusnow, laughing all the way. talk bout some topics and stuff.
den arond 2 plus. we pack our stuff and went home.
bussed home and i cant really stand it. was so damm sleepy and i slept on the bus. lol ! luckily didnt miss my stop.
reach home, watch tv and sleep till its 7 and i call diniy .
And sumthing not expected happened.
i feel sorry for you.
dont be sad okay. be strong.

To you,

cheer up kays, this all happen for a reason
its time for her to go
god loves her more then you do
pray hard for her and always think of her
this is life, things come and go
nothing stays in this world
so be strong okay ! :]

i dont mind of what u had, but of yourself

2009-10-25T14:06:00.004+08:00

Harris hamdi ilham

okay, gonna post about yesterday
wennt out with ITE mates to RP to do our projects on TPC module
was suppose to meet up at 3.30 at causeway point
but end up all meet at 4. loL !
so walk to RP and we have hell out of fun.
been laughing my ass off all the way there
this what happen when we met.
forever never ending laugh.

so reach RP, we find a spot to do our projects and work on it
after finish planning and all Harris, ilham and me went to the soccer field to see if teheres rugby match goin on.
when we reach there, theres no match at all. so we went to smoke at the park beside.
and thats where the laughing begins..

Harris and me finished smoking and we forget that ilham was still on it.
so we just walk den ilham shouted while seating on the stone staring at the sunset
" WAH, BEST AH TGK SUNSET ALONE!! " HHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!
when we turn back, he's like so feelings looking at the sunset alone. LOL !!

so walk back to the place we do our project to as harris gf's waiting there.
we slack there till 7 plus and was surfing the internet freely. hehe !
den we went to marsiling to had our dinner there and went home .
It was a fun day i admit it. its been so long i didnt had been laughing so much.
thanks you guys. loL !!

Soccer training starting soon.

hmmm ! lazy to go man !

C I N T A

C
Cinta ku yang satu
I
Impian yang nyata
N
Nikmat yg berbeda
T
Tanpa pengertian
A
Antara kau dan aku

Aku Sayang Kamu Bodoh ! hahahah !
and im sabit !

2009-10-22T20:06:00.000+08:00

Once u said hello
Please dont say goodbye .

2009-10-21T02:39:00.002+08:00

Tuesday = Boring day
I was late for school as im too lazy to get my ass up off my bed.
bathe and everything, bussed to school and proceed to the gym and had lessons there.
We had to carry some weights in the gym.
done some bench press which makes me having some minor pains on my chest muscles.
Then around 11 plus, class end and we went to the canteen to eat.
then homed.
its so humid nowdays.
thanks to the global warming.
reach home,bathe and got to sleep till 7 plus den went down for takraw with senja peeps.
overall takraw was fun.

seating by the window while lighting my cigg to smoke
something came to my mind
i wonder what am i doing was right
dont wanna repeat the same mistakes again
had enough of suffering
wanna be serious this time
but the thing is
i dont know how too
its so complicated

2009-10-20T03:22:00.001+08:00

FUCKFUCKFUCK !

2009-10-20T02:28:00.002+08:00

" The only music that my ears wanna listens too is your voice "

Monday blues Monday blues Monday blues
its monday and im so lazy to go school
was shutting my eyes till its 8am and get ready for school
bathe and everything and off to school
so bussed there and i reached early althougth i went of late.
so class started at 9am and ended around 11.30
going to school was such a wasting time to me
its like not school, went there and slack den when its time, we may go home.

so reached home
slept till 7 plus and went to sheng shiong for OTAK-OTAK as im craving for it. LOL !
sadly they didnt sell it.
so went to slack at senja with frens.

Feelings getting stronger;
We were given Two hands to hold.
Two legs to walk.
Two eyes to see.
Two ears to listen.
But why only one heart?
Because the other was given to someone else.
For us to find. issit you ?

2009-10-19T01:14:00.003+08:00

" Why meet just only to say goodbye "

im hoping that this wont happen .

2009-10-19T00:54:00.002+08:00

Well, went to BBDC yesterday to do my evaluation test for the first time and manage to pass. fuhhh ! can proceed to BTT already which falls on the 6 of november.
so theres no need to waste my money on doing it again.

okayyy.... when we talk about life.
my Life seems to be exciting this few days.
things are getting better, no problems and stuff
yet there's sure be up and down.
when its bout love .
what i can say is that it can be broken up into differents parts
till we dunnoe where to start sometimes
as for me, its kindda funny .
we do behave like one but eventually not even together .
but its kindda fun though.

off to bed now
tml schooling. wth !

2009-10-17T18:16:00.003+08:00

Many thing for us to do

hmmm, the lyrics...
well, its a great song though..

2009-10-16T16:51:00.002+08:00

" When you meet that special someone you’ll understand why it didn’t work out with anyone else. "

2009-10-14T23:04:00.004+08:00

" I had a crush
I'm crushing on you
When the fun is going on
Did you blow the smoke
Into my eyes
I dreamt about heaven and hell
You were an angel
And i was the devil himself
I had a crush "

" Crush on you
Yes it's true
Well i had a crush
Crush on you
Yea it's true
Well i had a crush on you
No one but you "

" I had a crush
I'm crushing on you
O this must be heaven
I did she smile
When we sweet spoke together
And i remember
I had this dream
I was tripin with you
I'm your lucifer
And you were the goddess herself
Yes i had a crush "

" O you were the goddess herself
I had a crush
Yes it's true
I had a crush
Crush on you "

2009-10-12T00:59:00.000+08:00

We can lay here forever under the stars in your arms,forget about the world spinning on it’s axis.We exist.If you believe if in me then maybe you would see that we’re not perfect but it don’t matter when you’re here,when we’re together,cause the truth in love is that you don’t have to change cause I’m in love with you.We can sit here and talk about something,anything. Just be with me don’t go. There’s no hurry I’ll be waiting

2009-10-11T23:47:00.002+08:00

Well , things just can't get any better .

What im hoping seems to be fading away soon .

2009-10-11T00:59:00.003+08:00

Sometimes its On and most of the times its Off

take it as a lamp.

when its On, my room will be bright but when its off my room is covered with darkness.

well, im having that kind of feelings now.

it will be brighten up when you're here and darkness haunts me when you're away .

2009-10-10T01:44:00.000+08:00

I WAS WRONG. :[

Thanks yea .